over it....

I just want it to be over already...it sucks with him being gone. Monster misses him dearly. She is so used to calling her daddy on the phone that he has no access to a phone and the emails are down. Well today I took Jacks mother to Walmart and I got a red light ticket. The same ticket Jack just got two weeks ago. I bought clothes for the monster and dog food, stocking stuffers, new stockings and lights. Bricks for the dog house. Hopefully that works for their blanket not to get all wet. I bought Jack this grilling book he wanted. Got him almond roca, and came home... kids came home from school, driving me crazy........ Jacks mother is cursed........

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really frustrated....

So Jack came home last night until midnight. It was nice but it was like he wasn't there. All he talked about was work. Then dealing with one of his workers. Then we get a phone call at my house at 9:30pm. It's everyone he works with drunk and telling him to leave his family and get drunk with them. Now he never left to go but it was like everyone had to say a word to him. Even the girls. Like REALLY, that kinda upset me. Why the fuck do you need to get on the phone and shit. Apparently the are all that comfortable with each other after only a month. Weird to me. I mean seriously would you get on the phone drunk to your boss and tell him to get his ass to the bar. Not no but HELL NO!!! Then he promised me in the morning he would call the auto repair shop to tell him we aren't going to give him $500 for a new battery and to clean the throttle body. So of course I can't get a hold of him and he never called. So I and the Guy was a total douche bag. He charged me full price for the looking at my car fucking tool. Oh and I called a taxi to bring me to the auto repair shop and after an hour and a half of standing in 30 degree weather freezing my ass off. My neighbor said she would give me a ride. So thankful..... gave her ten bucks well worth it. Then from everything happening I am a total bitch to Jack. Ugh.... I feel so bad beside this shit is hard. He lives with these people and now we are on the back burner. I am so used to being so close to him that I will definitely admit I am jealous....hurt and lonely......

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if it's not one thing...

So today I decided to go to the store and after shock and I leave I go to start my car. Mind you it's the only car I have now because my truck is broken. So it starts then dies. So this goes on for a good 10 minutes. So hopeless I try to call everyone I know to help. AND no one answers. SO I ask my mom "please get me home, all I want to do is go home". IT started. So now I am upset because now I am going to have to get a car payment. Sucks... I just payed my other car off. UGH...... makes me miss Jack even more. Don't know how I am going to make it with out him but as time goes on I will get stronger... it just hurts inside knowing you will be alone with out your husband for a year and have no one........

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Trying to be strong

So today was a hard day... my husband is gone and I have an annoying mother in law, that gets under my skin. I have a broken truck, that needs a new engine. I want a new car but I don't want the car payment's... I'm sad because I will not see my husband for a year..it sucks knowing you will be alone.. away from family.... I did get a lot done today. I mailed off my niece's and nephew's Xmas presents, that was a killing. Then I decided to shop my depression away, buying the girls clothes and 2 more gifts.. I paid Trent aka dickhead his money so now he will never call.. whatever... so yeah I am going to shower and lay here in bed and try to sleep

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I'M BBBBAAAACCCCCKKKKK!!!!!!

Hello someone,

So today my 13 year old decided to flip out after he received a paper cut from his school work. Now he is pissed that he has to go school and how stupid it is. So of course Jack is home and tries to put him in his place and the kid just won't give. Speaking louder than his father, telling his dad he is not going to school. I am so frustrated and I want to help my son, but the doctors tell me I am crazy there is nothing wrong with your son. It's so hard to have your older child have so many issues and then having "Shock" in second grade who really needs me.It's hard to help him and her. I just want him to be more independent. On another note. I started packing more boxes for the move to Washington. I am not happy because of my family living here in California, then I am happy because it is a new start. I am already started on my Nursing Degree, my dream!!! Planning to end it in Washington. I promised my mom I would do it. Jack and I went to the fair and I had a psychic did a palm reading on me. She told me that I will live until I am in my 80's or 90's. Well see. I need to stop worrying, which I do a lot. 2011 is going to be a GREAT year!!! I will be in Washington.... To go to nursing school because I will be very successful at it, said she saw 4 kids in my life and asked how many I have. All my children will be successful and have money but one of them will be very successful and wealth and well known. My marriage is great and will continue to be.... no comment lol JK.... I have had 4 formal lives. I have a guardian angel which who doesn't...and that someone in my life is sick but she didn't see a death in the near future....... So yeah I took it all in and now I will make it all come true.....

This week.......

So this week started out pretty good. We have been chillin and I cleaned the childrens bedrooms...I threw away so much stuff...it felt great. So Tuesday Jon and Trent came over to watch a movie but it turned out the the burnt copy didn't play on any dvd we own. So instead we chilled outside and drink CNV's and talked. It was good times compared to any other night over at Jon's house. Different whore every night and they stay up to 3am or sometimes 5am. Retarded if you ask me!! Anywho, we went over to Jon's house after the brats went to sleep and we watched Angels and Demons....Pretty good movie. Then I drink way to much and it was time to go home....Thank god home is 5 blocks away......NICE huh.To day we are planning to go to the fair so we'll see how that goes....TTYL

For goodness sakes

So today ws a pretty good day. The kids did not listen to me yesterday so I decided that I was going to make them stay in the house and do chores all day. First they cleaned there rooms. Then I made them do laundry. So as the day progressed I decided that they earned there freedom anf let them go outside and play with there friends. Our friend Jon came over and was telling us how much he is in debt and he feels her will never get out of the hole he is in. SO, I sat down with him and asked him what his bills are and all that good stuff. Needless to say, I got him to a payment plan that will get him debt free in 3 months. I just don't get it. I am SO not a mathmatition and yet it's not that hard for me to figare out bills. SO FUCKING HILIAROUS!!! So after I explained what he needs to do and put it into a excal spreed sheet, he got this smile on his face and totally attached me on his couch. ANOTHER deed done!!!!! It;s so fun how I can help other yet I cant FUCKIN HELP MYSELF!!!! ANywho, I went and bought Kaitlynn her Daisy tunic and shorts and her patches....she has a meeting tomorrow at 4pm so this should be fun!!!!